my energy is getting spent
and i found a knot in my hair. just a little one tho.
but those seem to hurt the most.
idk if i bent
this out of proportion. but i’m done
studious is how i look at it, others might see no fun.
just like what sobriety did for my image
i felt normal, but i guess i was a bitch
needed to “relax” because apparently, i wasn’t “having a good time”
unless i act like i’m losing my mind. or maybe that i just don’t have one.
i want to lay
in bed all day
and have a boy of my choice
sing to me with his beautiful voice
songs he makes up just for me
because he knows it’ll cheer
me up more than any amount of beer
or hard liquor or wine
i’m just fine. with him and me time.
turn off the phone
and leave us alone
i need to hear what happens next
no phone calls, voicemails, myspace or text
just peace and quiet
you should try it
on sometime. just give in
and heal yourself from within
no boy required, but it was my daydream
so i made my own rules and i want it to be with “him”
mr. perfect guy
no eyes
for another, just for I
but all this would be done
once school was over and done
with. so until then. just thoughts i have
on days where i feel like there’s nothing left
