…in silent reverie..

i ran as fast as i could after class
the wind blowing my hair into a mess
  i  could no longer be apart
feel him, hear him calling my heart:
  “come out and play
no work of any kind tonight..just come rest under my shade” 
           Ran So Fast
i could barely keep balance
    it had been a WHOLE day
and i could no longer be away…

my tree lives in
          my secret garden
   unnoticed by any who try
        to find..although it does not hide
it turned dark tonight…quicker than normal
a shade of rusty crescent moon and purple
filled the horizon
as i lay under my tree’s branches..this feels a little different -
maybe it’s the sky?
      did night
suddenly turn light???
         no! wait! my tree -
  - the leaves -
                             – They Are Fire

oh! wait…look again…
      just the leaves changing
         
                    flooding
   down 
               orange. 
 yellow.
                             red.
all  
         raining
  down
                     covering entirely
         get lost in leaves
now part of me

starlite. starbrite.

tonite
my star said hello.
a small glow
a halo
of soft light surrounded
as it danced for me.
played with me..trying to hide
in the night sky
randomly disappearing
but just for a moment..then it reappeared
to remind me that it was still here.

my star came out tonite
i know it had to be mine
looking at the others, none popped out like this one
one of the smallest
with the glow making it’s briteness just a little less
but not in my eyes…my heart felt it. and still does

my star calls out and tells me stories
it listens
and is there for me to cry to
It gives me strength
and makes me smile
my star is amazing. and i love it.

>-   <3    =)

..do you know…

clear your head for me please…
all your thoughts and anything
else that is currently consuming
your being…

Now – close yours eyes just for a second…
please…just for this moment

                     inhale
                            e   x    h  a  l    e

okay…one more thing…can i ask…
what did you see? or who did you see?
or were there no images…just a feeling?
quite possibly maybe…were any of those a glimpse of me?

because everytime
            i
close my
eyes,             i
only see you . your beautiful face shining
the way your voice makes me smile
deafening – your warm soul entrancing me to stay just a little while
longer
i cannot let go of you…you are my center
always coming back to you…never
want to Leave…i am lost in you
Passion and Love have consumed
and i do not want to let go…cannot surrender, knew
i was going to lose
me
in this journey…
but you are worth every
bit and more of the possibility.

i love you
real and true
and hope you realize that you feel the same way too
                 soon

<3 listen to your heart <3

first quiet the world inside then out. the busy-ness
of life muffles Heaven within.
desires hide
the Truth that is there the whole time.

she whispers softly, so it is hard to hear
her if you do not quiet your emotions. life is so Simple. but We
are human and need
to complicate it.
Create
problems and questions from nothing.
clear. calm
quiet…now
L  i  s  t   e   n
can you hear her
speak? comes in faint. Time will cure that. Broken
because she cannot be Heard
Asking….
but as long as we do, we will be. Receive
this moment. in the nothingness lives Eternity
clear. calm
Now
receive it fully. see? not so Hard =)

she has been received and will
always as long as we do all
the Beauty in front of us that busy life
tries to blind
us from. now i am Aware. clear
my mind. Calm my Heart. now Receive
and be received <3

no matter how different

my heart still chooses you. wants you close.
i am blind to all others. when i love, i am monogamous.
no one else exists
but you. i want to give
only to you – my whole self. every last piece
of me,
i give to you willingly.
even if not reciprocated. i do not care.
i am solely attracted to you and no one can take that away.
only if you express that you no longer want my company, will i refrain
or back down. i will not let go until you
ask me to.

hope you do not grow tired of me
annoyed by my need to be near.
something in your eyes just captivate
when you look, you glance into my soul. and i really, really like it
and i need to be patient
go slow. we have time, right?
or is there a window of opportunity that is slowly
closing
with
ea  ch    b  re   at  h
i stop from confessing
myself ?

..do it tonight…forever

i just need sleep
to bring me peace
i am unable to achieve
in a waking state. i seem
to always live in fantasy and daydream.
i envision
a million times our first kiss
and all that proceed. it
comes second nature
so uncontrollably perfect =)

quite possibly…maybe…

i continue to dream you into life.
wrong or right
possible or impossible. i do not care!
given to BREAK
i love the thought of you
your being. your soul. your aura.
you are inviting. and oh so warm =)
i love being near you. you are home. you are comfort
you come so naturally

 

but i cannot yell this
to the universe
or to you because
i am afraid.
{of losing you.of losing the butterflies.of being rejected}
so i create
stories from the inflections
in your tone. from the intent
behind the glances.

when you are far, it goes a little
different -
my soul
is in turmoil
wanting to be close
again, waiting for a response
right away – my soul hurts
until i hear back. but
in your presence i want time to stop. so it can be forever
j u s t        l  i  k  e           t      h     i    s   <2

gotta take the good with the bad…

love me the way you love her
is all i ask for
JUST equal, not more..
look at me the same

i know she’s always been your favorite
and that’s why i grow  jealous so quick

but just once
love me equal

please
otherwise, these
tears
will not leave me
alone.
even being close
tears me apart…
that hug…hurt my heart
because that one ounce
of care…brings me down
wanting more. knowing that day may never come
or as fast and often as i need

so please hear me:
Love Me Equally…
even if pretending.

beautiful girls are invisible

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

feel the shivers
like a million whispers
continuous breath
lingering down your neck..tingles
like baby hairs tickling
when fingertips press light, moving up quick
then abruptly leave, leaving me wanting more

foreign right before it turns familiar
part of me
i am ecstasy!

a sort of double vision, but not as clear
auras jump out and i cannot see
anything BUT the energy
around each thing…so bright i get lost in the glare

i am high right now
on nothing specific…no drug, no drink, nothing
just consumed by this feeling
SO strong but indescribable
wish you could taste it’s sweetness

pleasure is on the other side

the sun sets here
while your eyes see one Rising.
the start to yours
ends mine from the one before

i want to be better because of you
i want to feel love again -
Because of YOU
yes.
it hurts, but i know the outcome could
be SO good -
well worth the passing pain inflicted with your absence.

can’t you see?
you are in the future, does my fantasy
exist in reality there?

because when i wake from my dreams
you lay down to sleep
then i get to see
what you have already -

bring back my peace
please
memory is fading fast

his face grows hazy
voice becomes blurry
- However -
his being cannot be erased
because his aura easily outlasts these days
the feeling lasts for eternity
it’s just that my vessel craves tangible things
currently missing…