…in silent reverie..

i ran as fast as i could after class
the wind blowing my hair into a mess
  i  could no longer be apart
feel him, hear him calling my heart:
  “come out and play
no work of any kind tonight..just come rest under my shade” 
           Ran So Fast
i could barely keep balance
    it had been a WHOLE day
and i could no longer be away…

my tree lives in
          my secret garden
   unnoticed by any who try
        to find..although it does not hide
it turned dark tonight…quicker than normal
a shade of rusty crescent moon and purple
filled the horizon
as i lay under my tree’s branches..this feels a little different -
maybe it’s the sky?
      did night
suddenly turn light???
         no! wait! my tree -
  - the leaves -
                             – They Are Fire

oh! wait…look again…
      just the leaves changing
         
                    flooding
   down 
               orange. 
 yellow.
                             red.
all  
         raining
  down
                     covering entirely
         get lost in leaves
now part of me

surrender to serenity

The water calls to me
i hear the beauty in it’s waves.

Language has become my music
but that without sound.

His writing looks like a symphony
to me
“because it is”

then in his eyes
i saw life
Love. my soul
swimming in our eyes’ reflections.
*a twinkle*
my Star!
saying to take notice

warmth overcame me, but not in the form of heat
more in the Sense of Fullness.
no labels required
no expectations to live up to
just that moment
frozen in time
in the mind of my heart stays with me still
because that look. those eyes. his touch.
his grasp
on my Soul
… * sigh * …
i cannot help but fall
       in  
     love
over
      and
          over
              again
   replaying that scene
                  continuously 
just because

starlite. starbrite.

tonite
my star said hello.
a small glow
a halo
of soft light surrounded
as it danced for me.
played with me..trying to hide
in the night sky
randomly disappearing
but just for a moment..then it reappeared
to remind me that it was still here.

my star came out tonite
i know it had to be mine
looking at the others, none popped out like this one
one of the smallest
with the glow making it’s briteness just a little less
but not in my eyes…my heart felt it. and still does

my star calls out and tells me stories
it listens
and is there for me to cry to
It gives me strength
and makes me smile
my star is amazing. and i love it.

>-   <3    =)

*this* is good

out in the open.
all to know is known
at least for my part and the matters of my heart
no longer hiding..
more like smiling
because i have said my Peace <3

i have a crush
and idk if it’s serious
i just
know i love being near you
i can’t stop thinking about you
i continuously write your name in my
mind…scribing
it in pretend brings
a sort
of comfort…
i really really…enjoy =)

..do you know…

clear your head for me please…
all your thoughts and anything
else that is currently consuming
your being…

Now – close yours eyes just for a second…
please…just for this moment

                     inhale
                            e   x    h  a  l    e

okay…one more thing…can i ask…
what did you see? or who did you see?
or were there no images…just a feeling?
quite possibly maybe…were any of those a glimpse of me?

because everytime
            i
close my
eyes,             i
only see you . your beautiful face shining
the way your voice makes me smile
deafening – your warm soul entrancing me to stay just a little while
longer
i cannot let go of you…you are my center
always coming back to you…never
want to Leave…i am lost in you
Passion and Love have consumed
and i do not want to let go…cannot surrender, knew
i was going to lose
me
in this journey…
but you are worth every
bit and more of the possibility.

i love you
real and true
and hope you realize that you feel the same way too
                 soon

feeling overTake Me

 

i would be SO  great for Him!!!
i have so much Love to give.
only wish he would be open to Receiving it..

conversations come easy between the two of us
my eyes never wander
never will..my heart
will stay focused on him forever and Ever…swear!
there is no need to search for better
if he loves me back

no man exists in my world but my love
he is my center. he is here. There.
in all the spaces in between.
Devotion is my middle name
when he loves me back

he makes me smile and the only mission i have:
create an environment where he feels as happy as i am
when he is near…feel myself falling
but not as scary as first thought
because he might love me back

so i sit.
do not speak.
just wait.
in case he loves me back

it’s not what he can give
that i want but what i will give
            for him to Receive
     i want to be his shoulder to cry/lean
on.                my legs, a place for his head
    to rest
when he does not feel well
     that’s when i make a bath for him
           then bathe together in the warmth
                       our bodies
    fit like puzzle pieces
      when we fall asleep
    our breath,  once separate, now inhale as one
exhaling  together         feel the LOVE
the peace comes easy   -                 s  e    &     fa    
                                                    i                           l       
                              chests    R                                      l
     harmoniously    -      i want to do all
            this for him.   and him alone
no one else do i have this need to be there for in this way because -
how could he not love me back?

so here i wait for him (and him alone)
-  if he does not come
then i will just stay up for a little longer
     just in case he remembers 
                he loves me back <3

..meaning of..

Given to be Broken
Asking only to be received…

they break because we cannot see the Full potential in ourselves.
to be received is to be realized.  acknowledged. found out.

the meaning of the phrase
(to me)
is that hearts are destined to be broken
(by our own doing)
we search outside for Divinity. in others
while it has always lived within. like God
our hearts wait patiently for us to realize that
and  acknowledge how Special we are.
Hearts contain the universe. the Answers. Heaven. nirvana.
nothing. Everything.
whatever you want to define it as. we see glimpses
occassionally, but are unable to Fully grasp it
until we are no longer here – in this time. until
this existence ceases, we are incapable of seeing continuously
life is too busy and distracts so easily..but
our Hearts will continue to wait. until…then =)

hearts Break because they are disconnected
from the “physical” realm. from the perception
of reality we have created. and until United:
~ MindBodySoul ~
they call out to be heard. to be Received…
(the Loud life produces::makes their cries hard to hear::whispers)
and they will continue to Break until we become Aware <3

did that make sense?
or was i just rambling nonsense??

<3 listen to your heart <3

first quiet the world inside then out. the busy-ness
of life muffles Heaven within.
desires hide
the Truth that is there the whole time.

she whispers softly, so it is hard to hear
her if you do not quiet your emotions. life is so Simple. but We
are human and need
to complicate it.
Create
problems and questions from nothing.
clear. calm
quiet…now
L  i  s  t   e   n
can you hear her
speak? comes in faint. Time will cure that. Broken
because she cannot be Heard
Asking….
but as long as we do, we will be. Receive
this moment. in the nothingness lives Eternity
clear. calm
Now
receive it fully. see? not so Hard =)

she has been received and will
always as long as we do all
the Beauty in front of us that busy life
tries to blind
us from. now i am Aware. clear
my mind. Calm my Heart. now Receive
and be received <3

gotta take the good with the bad…

love me the way you love her
is all i ask for
JUST equal, not more..
look at me the same

i know she’s always been your favorite
and that’s why i grow  jealous so quick

but just once
love me equal

please
otherwise, these
tears
will not leave me
alone.
even being close
tears me apart…
that hug…hurt my heart
because that one ounce
of care…brings me down
wanting more. knowing that day may never come
or as fast and often as i need

so please hear me:
Love Me Equally…
even if pretending.

beautiful girls are invisible

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

feel the shivers
like a million whispers
continuous breath
lingering down your neck..tingles
like baby hairs tickling
when fingertips press light, moving up quick
then abruptly leave, leaving me wanting more

foreign right before it turns familiar
part of me
i am ecstasy!

a sort of double vision, but not as clear
auras jump out and i cannot see
anything BUT the energy
around each thing…so bright i get lost in the glare

i am high right now
on nothing specific…no drug, no drink, nothing
just consumed by this feeling
SO strong but indescribable
wish you could taste it’s sweetness