starlite. starbrite.

tonite
my star said hello.
a small glow
a halo
of soft light surrounded
as it danced for me.
played with me..trying to hide
in the night sky
randomly disappearing
but just for a moment..then it reappeared
to remind me that it was still here.

my star came out tonite
i know it had to be mine
looking at the others, none popped out like this one
one of the smallest
with the glow making it’s briteness just a little less
but not in my eyes…my heart felt it. and still does

my star calls out and tells me stories
it listens
and is there for me to cry to
It gives me strength
and makes me smile
my star is amazing. and i love it.

>-   <3    =)

..meaning of..

Given to be Broken
Asking only to be received…

they break because we cannot see the Full potential in ourselves.
to be received is to be realized.  acknowledged. found out.

the meaning of the phrase
(to me)
is that hearts are destined to be broken
(by our own doing)
we search outside for Divinity. in others
while it has always lived within. like God
our hearts wait patiently for us to realize that
and  acknowledge how Special we are.
Hearts contain the universe. the Answers. Heaven. nirvana.
nothing. Everything.
whatever you want to define it as. we see glimpses
occassionally, but are unable to Fully grasp it
until we are no longer here – in this time. until
this existence ceases, we are incapable of seeing continuously
life is too busy and distracts so easily..but
our Hearts will continue to wait. until…then =)

hearts Break because they are disconnected
from the “physical” realm. from the perception
of reality we have created. and until United:
~ MindBodySoul ~
they call out to be heard. to be Received…
(the Loud life produces::makes their cries hard to hear::whispers)
and they will continue to Break until we become Aware <3

did that make sense?
or was i just rambling nonsense??

<3 listen to your heart <3

first quiet the world inside then out. the busy-ness
of life muffles Heaven within.
desires hide
the Truth that is there the whole time.

she whispers softly, so it is hard to hear
her if you do not quiet your emotions. life is so Simple. but We
are human and need
to complicate it.
Create
problems and questions from nothing.
clear. calm
quiet…now
L  i  s  t   e   n
can you hear her
speak? comes in faint. Time will cure that. Broken
because she cannot be Heard
Asking….
but as long as we do, we will be. Receive
this moment. in the nothingness lives Eternity
clear. calm
Now
receive it fully. see? not so Hard =)

she has been received and will
always as long as we do all
the Beauty in front of us that busy life
tries to blind
us from. now i am Aware. clear
my mind. Calm my Heart. now Receive
and be received <3

no matter how different

my heart still chooses you. wants you close.
i am blind to all others. when i love, i am monogamous.
no one else exists
but you. i want to give
only to you – my whole self. every last piece
of me,
i give to you willingly.
even if not reciprocated. i do not care.
i am solely attracted to you and no one can take that away.
only if you express that you no longer want my company, will i refrain
or back down. i will not let go until you
ask me to.

hope you do not grow tired of me
annoyed by my need to be near.
something in your eyes just captivate
when you look, you glance into my soul. and i really, really like it
and i need to be patient
go slow. we have time, right?
or is there a window of opportunity that is slowly
closing
with
ea  ch    b  re   at  h
i stop from confessing
myself ?

feel as long as it’s real

this overwhelming sense of being
overcomes from deep within
yet i have you to thank
you take me to places
i have never imagined could be real
but i feel this feeling
and it’s consuming
and unbelievably Zen
just memories
are all i need
and the thought of when it will be you and me
all over again <3

you have awakend something inside
and i have finally come to Life
after the aftermath
you have shown me a path
a secret sneak peak
at where this all might lead

always loved you..from the first time

sing a song for me
think of me constantly
like i do…right back
wish upon me back!
let me be your heart
your soul
your indulgence
your keeper of starlite
your music box
your beautiful mess
your Everything
y o u r     l a s t      b r e a t h.
let me be a part of you
your wish
your thoughts
your being
your reason to -

be my life
my path
my best friend
my rock
my moment
my sky
i want you to be My song
my poetry
my numbness
my excitement
my irrationality
my galaxy. my Universe
my light at the end of this tunnel
my reason to smile
to wait
to remember
to dream
to write
to keep hoping
to just -
feel EVERYTHING…crazy, happy, anxious, nervous, giddy, uncontrollably…UnBelievably…*sigh*

philosophy

why am i here?
dealing with the situations at hand
the way i do…why are the people in my life
in my life?
what purpose do they serve for me/
do i serve for them?

maybe it’s all ONE BIG
coincidence…
maybe we’re all looking for answers
to a Question
that does not Exist.

do i really want to know
or is the journey and Possibility
Enough to Satisfy?

maybe the answer is not as great
as doing the work to figure “it” out…
maybe we aren’t supposed to find The
Answer. or even ANY..
maybe there is no reason
maybe there is no Purpose
no point to All This…

and maybe, i’m done guessing
and analyzing and
repeating…

Maybe.

quietly…at a stand still..

voice sends vibrations through my nerves
sending shivers down my spine
with just an inflection
i get off
on the rawness
of you. naked in your lyrics -
baring your soul
coming into mine…
with every syllable i am stuck
wanting the next part to come
this sensation is spiritual
in every sense of the feeling.
Climaxing
at your tone, never coming down
from this HIGH.
i can see your face and how you mouth
each
and 
every
b r e a t h
- close your eyes and become One
with the rest
when we share this blink of bliss <3
pure nirvana
is So ~ ZEN ~

through a looking glass…

the vibrations lead us
instincts from the gut
appear
seamlessly
unquestioned
never mentioned
why or how — listen!
to the empty space between
the tangible things
indescribable
answers incapable
to reason rationalizations
does not make sense
cannot make sense:
taste my teeth
smell my tears
hear my soul
see the control
feel everying
AND nothing
at the exact same time.
and do not question “How” or “Why” -
Just Do <3

the only answer is “yes”

chaos drives me into
the unknown
alone
without you…

and i ask
am i ready for this?
the winding path
continues to an abyss
but i cannot see that far
and there is no light to guide
it is so dark
i squint – trying

to see a little more
but what for?

no one is ever prepared
for what life has or will throw your way -

the current chaos brings me a sort
of order
without it, i would be lost.
not being able to keep a schedule
is my calendar. everchanging -
unpredictable and perfect in it’s own sense
of the word. such beauty
i see in the mess it causes