surrender to serenity

The water calls to me
i hear the beauty in it’s waves.

Language has become my music
but that without sound.

His writing looks like a symphony
to me
“because it is”

then in his eyes
i saw life
Love. my soul
swimming in our eyes’ reflections.
*a twinkle*
my Star!
saying to take notice

warmth overcame me, but not in the form of heat
more in the Sense of Fullness.
no labels required
no expectations to live up to
just that moment
frozen in time
in the mind of my heart stays with me still
because that look. those eyes. his touch.
his grasp
on my Soul
… * sigh * …
i cannot help but fall
       in  
     love
over
      and
          over
              again
   replaying that scene
                  continuously 
just because

feeling overTake Me

 

i would be SO  great for Him!!!
i have so much Love to give.
only wish he would be open to Receiving it..

conversations come easy between the two of us
my eyes never wander
never will..my heart
will stay focused on him forever and Ever…swear!
there is no need to search for better
if he loves me back

no man exists in my world but my love
he is my center. he is here. There.
in all the spaces in between.
Devotion is my middle name
when he loves me back

he makes me smile and the only mission i have:
create an environment where he feels as happy as i am
when he is near…feel myself falling
but not as scary as first thought
because he might love me back

so i sit.
do not speak.
just wait.
in case he loves me back

it’s not what he can give
that i want but what i will give
            for him to Receive
     i want to be his shoulder to cry/lean
on.                my legs, a place for his head
    to rest
when he does not feel well
     that’s when i make a bath for him
           then bathe together in the warmth
                       our bodies
    fit like puzzle pieces
      when we fall asleep
    our breath,  once separate, now inhale as one
exhaling  together         feel the LOVE
the peace comes easy   -                 s  e    &     fa    
                                                    i                           l       
                              chests    R                                      l
     harmoniously    -      i want to do all
            this for him.   and him alone
no one else do i have this need to be there for in this way because -
how could he not love me back?

so here i wait for him (and him alone)
-  if he does not come
then i will just stay up for a little longer
     just in case he remembers 
                he loves me back <3

..meaning of..

Given to be Broken
Asking only to be received…

they break because we cannot see the Full potential in ourselves.
to be received is to be realized.  acknowledged. found out.

the meaning of the phrase
(to me)
is that hearts are destined to be broken
(by our own doing)
we search outside for Divinity. in others
while it has always lived within. like God
our hearts wait patiently for us to realize that
and  acknowledge how Special we are.
Hearts contain the universe. the Answers. Heaven. nirvana.
nothing. Everything.
whatever you want to define it as. we see glimpses
occassionally, but are unable to Fully grasp it
until we are no longer here – in this time. until
this existence ceases, we are incapable of seeing continuously
life is too busy and distracts so easily..but
our Hearts will continue to wait. until…then =)

hearts Break because they are disconnected
from the “physical” realm. from the perception
of reality we have created. and until United:
~ MindBodySoul ~
they call out to be heard. to be Received…
(the Loud life produces::makes their cries hard to hear::whispers)
and they will continue to Break until we become Aware <3

did that make sense?
or was i just rambling nonsense??

beautiful girls are invisible

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

feel the shivers
like a million whispers
continuous breath
lingering down your neck..tingles
like baby hairs tickling
when fingertips press light, moving up quick
then abruptly leave, leaving me wanting more

foreign right before it turns familiar
part of me
i am ecstasy!

a sort of double vision, but not as clear
auras jump out and i cannot see
anything BUT the energy
around each thing…so bright i get lost in the glare

i am high right now
on nothing specific…no drug, no drink, nothing
just consumed by this feeling
SO strong but indescribable
wish you could taste it’s sweetness

this man loves this woman
but she does not feel the same
she hurts him with another…
he blackmails her to go
- she has a way out -
but the other does not fulfill the deal
so she is forced to venture off with him

he is mean to her
alone – and bored…she wanders
she finds out about who he is for the first time
she falls in love with him
but he does not seem to care anymore
BUT
they finally begin to get each other

A F T E R    2    Y E A R S ! ! !

she loves him
he loves her
~ it is perfect ~

but then he is gone…
he took her to punish
but they both felt real love
for the first time. FULL…
her eyes shine from deep inside
he can see it. feel it. hear it. touch it. smell it. taste it.

he asks for forgiveness
but he does not need forgiveness
she says i’m sorry…

….and then it ends..

her heart broke
but better to have love and lost… as they say <3

to feel something SO real and tangible and alive!
even for a moment is worth any amount of pain
because the peak of pleasure is SO much higher
the low after might last longer in time…
but the memory of that happiness. love. peace. calm. perfection
can never leave your soul. in this world or all that follow after :)

just finding moments of Right Now

 
a rainbow…or the horizon…
there is no end
to it’s life in memory
when lips fit Perfectly.
when fingertips
feel so sensitive,
all you touch: tingles
and that just lingers
in my thoughts. i can always look back
it is never a thing of the past
a moment everlasting when Your
SOUL
entered into mine
and i could only respond with a Smile
and butterflies -
like a feather, i take flight -
thoughts clear out
- K e e p    T a s t i n g  y o u r     M  o  u  t  h
cannot imagine the second i will be WithOut.

Bedtime Story

when the music stopped, so did she…or so it seemed. They see the Spirit inside rests when her soul, in music, sleeps. Yet, she dances continuously  in her heart – never stopping. once she begins, the fire never quits. No prince comes because she does not need saving. never letting him break the barrier of her bubble. in her own world, she is satisfied, and she will continue on that way. Peace Be with you…andalsowithyou…Let her just be…do not try to trick or capture – Harmony, Tranquility, LOVE…alone. in her soul, she is the only one who hears it play….

it’s just a little lullaby to keep…

sleepy lethargy takes over me
i have no energy to defend
so can only
give In
no control, so just Release
any strength that might have been
inside of me
Deep withIn
crave sleep
never to aWaken
to the fantasy ~ Just Dream
just let it happen
just let it Be
who knows? this could be Heaven
Or Maybe
the worst Decision
my galaXy
has let into fruition -
time can Only
Tell…
time to Wait and See
and Believe in Peace will come from This <3

~ without you here with me, i can’t breathe ~

next time we meet
shyness will leave me
and a conversation
might just begin.
because who knows? you could be “him”
and i could be “her” – the ones that were meant
to combine and stick
so easily
effortlessly
hope the substance
is as real as the suspicions
of shared glances
continued by smiles
with mouths and eyes -
the static electrifies
sending rushes
of this obvious crush
down my spine and back up. stop at the heart
wish it would start
Already! beginning THE happily ever after <3

hundreds of pages for words

i think we could be great
but i don’t feel you see it.
maybe just
a little crush…
i wish
you could see this
or feel an ounce
of the intensity i feel when you’re around
the connection, undeniable -
SO why can’t you?!?!

i sense you sense it
just a little bit…
right?

he comes to view. or maybe just the opposite -
fading into the scene.
is he looking at me?
might be his back…i might be the observer in this instance.
gold is all over – the sun glows and smiles on us all.
leaves lightening – ready to fall -
and all i can see is this stranger fading away -
or maybe the haze is clearing. either way…
i enjoy this. right now!