hundreds of miles down

want
want
want
want
want
want you to feel the same
to want to be near
to want to talk
to answer always
to never be far
to think of me constantly
to feel like i do
right
now
at this
moment
want
want
want
want
it so BADLY

greyish to midnight blue

trapped. i want to explode.
to be free of this
this body
this world
this situation
                         set flight to somewhere far
FAR FAR away.
just breathe. relax. let it be…

i hate gravity
i hate the pull he has over me
i hate feeling crazy
over nothing
just stupidity…
on my part-
instinct or heart…
which is calling for him?
how are they different?
it’s easy being outside
not trapped in this mind
others have it easier
but that’s how we all see each other
because they are free
from this reality
out
and about…
not trapped – like me…

truly try

“If drugs are free,
it’s okay,” the excuse i keep
hearing,
But drugs are never free;
a price is always paid.
the loss of a day 
the killing of your energy and brain.
self-respect is nowhere to be found
guilt is felt and all control is gone.

little one. you are strong
stronger than you realize.
circumstances have placed you where you are
but why let them decide
and control right now?
The past is just that…
in the past.

and it hurts
to remember those who hurt
you. want to run and hide
go to your room and turn off that light
and lay, try to sleep, but all you can do is cry 
let it all out. so heavy
so hard. to let it all release
out of yourself
you scream for help

PLEASE
someone HEAR
ME
can’t you SEE
i NEED 
you DESPERATELY!!!

broken one:
i have been down that road before.
and i know how easy it is to fall to temptation. and how hard it actually is to stand up and Just Say No.
but this battle is not one i can fight for you. i will support you and be there for you in every way i can.
i promise you that. with all my heart.
No matter how many times you might fall, i will not look down at you, but give you my hand to show you that i am here and won’t leave your side.
no matter how bad things might get…
But, my hand is all i can offer.
the Rest is up to you…it is possible. you and i and the rest of the world knows it.