this race: life

run. as fast as i can. and i’m gonna see this race to the end.
quick. quicker. want to finish. need to finish…
don’t know how much longer i can run. thinking about taking a shortcut. cheating. to finish now. right now.immediately.
no looking back. no trying to catch a glimpse of someone following close behind. because as soon as i slow down for them. they’re going to run past me and not look back. leave me alone. again.
leaving me behind. just running. wishing i took the damn shortcut. cheated. been selfish. knowing if i hadn’t slowed to wait, i would’ve been done already. finished. at the end. done. with myself. my worries. my sadness. my waste of energy. time. everything.
i want to finish! to end! to stop fucking running! because i have no idea where this path is going to lead me and don’t know if i’m going to have the energy or strength to push through these stupid muscle cramps!!!